
Savta is right: I cannot let my heart make decisions as its split sometimes divides me between wisdom and pain.

Savta is right: I cannot let my heart make decisions as its split sometimes divides me between wisdom and pain.
Two years ago on this blessed day:
I remember the walk from Jerusalem to Bethlehem.
I remember the young couple from South Korea who joined me on my wander.
I remember crowded security lines and barbed-wire fences;
I remember an advertisement from the State reminding us tourists that Israel stands for peace.
(How else can commerce continue?)
I remember Taxi Loui: a young man and father with a bachelors in computer science and IT who must guilt Western foreigners into a Holy Tour for a bargain price of 150 New Israeli Shekels so he can feed his beautiful boys.
I remember blockades and Holy Land tour busses with images of doves carrying olive tree branches in their beaks.
I remember a woman of elderly age carrying a basket to collect food for the day forced back from entering the main part of town by young Jewish boys with American manufactured automatic rifles.
(How else can commerce continue?)
I remember the Church of Nativity.
I remember steep climb and falafel carts.
I remember Nigerians, Ghanians, Taiwanese, Philippines, Germans, Brits, Americans, Israelis, and many other faces from around the world wealthy enough to make the pilgrimage to the Holy Hotels.
I remember Patriarcha Hierosolymitanus Latinorum.
I remember the liturgy in Arabic and the Eucharist,
although it was difficult to hear over the thousands of worshipping shutters and flashes.
I remember the four-hour line to kiss the Manger.
I remember Disneyland: fast-track passes and all for an extra shekel.
(How else can commerce continue?)
I remember the Wall.
I remember a desecrated graveyard.
I remember evicted businesses and homes.
I remember ‘Ayda.
I remember the abandoned UNRWA building and the abandoned bank.
I remember old men with mustaches inviting me to share tea and shisha.
I remember three little boys, a deflated soccer ball, and a competitive match beside the Wall.
The Electricity flickered:
Lights off and
televisions off
(well…like for some).
And like a flash-
back to yesterday—
Oh! and the WIFI’s on!
A rose thrown into the room:
is it a flower or a stone?
I suppose even stones crumble.
And there’s that man without a face.
You’ll never shine that flashlight on
him, because you know he’ll stay black,
’cause you’ve calculated the time
light travels “from him to me.”
What you perceive now might not be
what he was then.
And the telephone’s still ringing—
some cat’s meowing for some food.
A recent lover’s left her voice,
but you just aren’t in the mood.
Besides, you know she’ll call you
back again. When your bed is cold,
you’ll call her too.
I’m tapping into my b(right) b(rain) tonight!
I saw Dada playing foosball with taxidermied squirrels.
Get up here right now, little boy!
Or else get beat!
But down there on the ground he sits
And seals his lips and clasps his fists,
And glares right at me bitter-eyed:
“Father,” he says, “I won’t decide!
I won’t decide!”